This is who I am, overly emotional, a perfectionist and one who gets panic attacks when things don't go her way. This is me. Why can't colleges accept that? Why can't I right about who I am?
Today in AVID I broke down, I cried like a baby and got a little freaked out about the fact that I was making a scene... I was looking at my KeyStone essay prompt and lost it! I could not think of anything to write about. I could not think of anything, couldn't think of how I have accomplished anything! And that is why I lost it, because I could not think of anything, my life is not the best. My life does not have the best story plot. I am a perfectionist who has anxiety attacks with asthma who is allergic to practically everything and who can't figure out why she randomly cries when she gets frusterated.
Personally I have to say that today, it wasn't only that I had to write about accomplishments I hadn't accomplished and secondly I have to admit it was built up stress and anger and panic and worry.
I have family issues too, I got a sister who never had to open a book to study and a younger brother who passed the HSA test that after 5 tries I still can't pass. I'm tired of feeling so second best.
Thanks Carney and friends for cheering me up, I have to admit it just ended up being one of those days...
Aww Kennedy, you sound like me. I hate feeling like second best =( I thought I was the only person who stressed over not having really accomplished anything.
ReplyDeleteKennedy, you should never feel second best to anyone. You know what I saw last year? I saw a girl struggling in AP English, and by the end of the year, even though you didn't get a 3 or higher, you still improved significantly as a writer and as a thinker. You have a very bright brain in your head Kennedy, never let anyone or anything (Algebra HSA included) make you feel unworthy! You are going to make an awesome teacher someday, I just know it.
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